1. Failing
this means in tests (i know), emotions, and life.. i don't know if it's an asian thing but whenever i think about my future and "failing" i tear up. Its probably because i don't want to show the weakness...which is a sign of failure.
2. People dying.
People that are close to me. like my parents... or boyfriend... :/ I want to die before they do ... so I don't have to live without them... D,: im weak.... ahrgvreg
3. Breaking up
I do believe that Dylan and I are souullmates .. XD lol but just the thought of not having him... doesn't feel right.... WHO WOULD WANT TO LOVE ME ANYWAYS?!. He's just right for me. OH! Four more days till our 16 months! :D
4. Pregnancy
I am extremely EXTREMELY paranoid on this one. i think that EVERYTHING causes babies... kissing.. hugging...D: touching dylan's face...or hands .... as of right now... i don't need no babies. When I'm married and settled down... ok.. just not now... i'm young, i haven't done anything with my life yet.. mer...
Yeah.. that's what im afraid of.. mainly.. as of now...
On the other side.... I cut my own hair... I have shortish bangs now that makes me look.... 10x asianier
and i got to see Dylan! after four weeks without him. He likes stocking.....
Im also thinking about cosplaying Kagura from Speed Graphers.
more info here : Speed_Grapher
It's true death is one of my fears too, thinking back it was one to stop me from taking my path in becoming a doctor ...
ReplyDeleteIn the end I do think everyone fears death to a certain point...
Furita
ps- I saw the cosplay and was wondering... are you going to London MCM Expo that just started today?
awww ... see im being a nurse to prevent as much deaths as possible... thats how i see it.. same with doctors.. you'd be saving people's lives. :)
ReplyDeleteand no im not going to MCM expo.... :,( i don't even live close to london... i would go if i could