I'm sorry guys for not posting. A lot of things have been going on in my life. More bad then good. I just feel unmotivated and stressed. I feel that everything I do, it's not good enough. And even if I try, it'll just end up bad. Mostly because of my parents, they never support me, encourage me or thing that told me that I am a good person. It's always I'm doing something wrong, I'm not good enough. Maybe at first it didn't hurt but eventually sinks in and I find myself feeling hopeless. I had to write a paper on motivations in myself. And... I had to make things up because I couldn't find person in my family that had motivated me. It made me realize that I had put my dreams aside for them. Everything for them. But they don't see that. and if you're wondering why I never post about going places....it's because I'm not allowed to go anywhere without them. I'm going to be 19 years old in less then a month.... in nine days. and a 10 year old has probably gone out more then I have :/ . And people ask me why don't I just leave. ... I can't... It's not that easy.
And for me making friends is a very difficult thing. I'm shy, I don't talk. I get it. But I get yelled because of this. WHY? I don't know. maybe because I'm not allowed to have friends. I don't know guys. It's been a bad month. It's been a bad life.
sorry for this sad post. but I needed to rant.
So .... What are some chains that hold you back?